The Darkness Has Arrived

Myelopathy is an emotional roller coaster like no other. Especially when every emotional coaster is amplified by the loneliness and the empty feeling the Coronavirus has brought us. I honestly can say how shocked I am on how it amplified every part of my life for good or bad. Here’s what I’ve learned so far.

Off the top of my head I can think of several emotionally trying situations that has only been exasperated by this plague:

1. Existing health problems for you or your loved ones and even their caretakers. Physical diseases are often painful during a non-pandemic but we don’t need to add anxiety to the mix.

2. Relationship stress and strain. Increased fighting and bickering. This could be as simple as disagreements about minor decisions with regard to raising your children and preparing them for HomeSchool to full out “Bring Me Divorce Papers”

3. Job stress as many corporations are having as many people as possible work from home raising the question what does Corporate America look like in 5 years?

4. Ghosts In Your Closet No I’m not talking about literal ghosts, but I’ve found that during a pandemic – it gives you way too much time to think about the choices you’ve made in your life. For better or for worse. Be cautious of this one as it’s the one with the deepest rabbit hole.

5. Feeling The World Is Closing In: I know this feeling probably the best of the 5. My father who has always been the center of my world is fading away from Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis which essentially is the lung tissues scars for and unknown reason which makes Oxygen very difficult to exchange. There is no cure and treatments are very often hit or miss or accelerate the disease. The average lifespan is 5 years. He is in his 4th and is now on O2 24/7.

Going through this list I’ve hit every tic except the jobs because I’m disabled. But I will tell you this has been an incredibly dark time for all of us. But some people can’t handle it all during these unique times. Which is why I’m not at all surprised the suicide rate has climbed in the last 6 months. So if I leave you with anything it’s this:

Check on your loved ones regularly. Don’t be afraid to ask and answer the hard questions. Be empathetic – we’ve all got other things going on. But most importantly – BE KIND!

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